Aftermath
Eyes closed, wrapped in a warm blanket of feelings.
Eyes open, the cold reality slams into my limp body like a wall.
One foot, then the other, slowly, shakily stepping back into the world I once knew,
A dull heat spreads through my body, replacing fear with insecurity and doubt.
How could I believe I could do this? Why is the sun so bright?
Clawing my way out from under my rock of powder and green,
The home I made and bed I lay for too many years.
Euphoria became a chore, all I ever needed was more!
My bed turned to nails, my home a dungeon.
I was my own dungeon master, blocking my escape by my petty, weak, needs.
Every day is a struggle, I wish I could live in a bubble,
The face in the mirror isn’t me, I wish I could just be free.